Us

I've just done a reading from Anne Sexton's poem, Us. Also, i added Moondog's Pastoral as the background song, because i think it's perfectly fit the whole words there. I love this song to the softest touch of velvety hands. Here's the link to my reading. 

http://soundcloud.com/prinkasaraswati/prinka-saraswati-us-anne

I was wrapped in black

fur and white fur and

you undid me and then

you placed me in gold light

and then you crowned me,

while snow fell outside

the door in diagonal darts.

While a ten-inch snow

came down like stars

in small calcium fragments,

we were in our own bodies

(that room that will bury us)

and you were in my body

(that room that will outlive us)

and at first I rubbed your

feet dry with a towel

because I was your slave

and then you called me princess.

Princess.

Oh then

I stood up in my gold skin

and I beat down the psalms

and I beat down the clothes

and you undid the bridle

and you undid the reins

and I undid the buttons,

the bones, the confusions,

the New England postcards,

the January ten o'clock night,

and we rose up like wheat,

acre after acre of gold,

and we harvested,

we harvested.

A Case of You

Saya suka menulis, tapi saya bukan semacam "penulis" atau "writer" dan juga tidak di sibukkan dengan berbagai metafora. Saya suka menulis saja, tanpa alasan yang pasti. Saya juga suka kopi instan yang selalu menemani saya dan cangkir kesukaan saya, yang berbentuk sederhana layaknya cangkir dari Sango dan berlukiskan motif sebuah taman dengan bunga daisy dan cinta sebagai awannya. Sebuah cangkir yang tidak keberatan di isi berulang - ulang untuk memuaskan empunya. Saya suka menulis sambil mendengarkan musik. Tidak selalu punk, noise atau 60s girl groups, tapi juga sekedar pop standard, soul, coldwave, atau iringan orkestra Chopin. Saat ini, ada A Case of You dari Joni Mitchell yang sedang mengalun. Saya suka petikan dulcimernya dan lebih dari itu, liriknya. Mungkin ini efek dari pengalaman pribadi dan situasi saat ini, hehe. It's more than just a love song. Lagu ini tentunya bukan lagu cinta yang cheesy (it's Joni. you know....). Liriknya bertutur tentang rasa yang cukup bijak dan naif di saat bersamaan. Joni menuturkan rasa naif saat berkata "constantly in the darkness, where's that at?". Bahwa ia sebenarnya, dia bukan bintang yang dimaksudkan pria tersebut dan berbicara sedikit sinis dengan "If you want me, I'll be in the bar.". Lagu ini sering terngiang di kepala saya, one of the best of the best love songs. Baris lainnya adalah, " remember that time that you told me, you said love is touching souls, surely you touched mine". MJDO (My Jaw Drops Open). Oke, rasa kasih sayang memang bukan cuma sekedar bergandengan tangan dan nonton di bioskop. Ada sesuatu yang lebih, jauh lebih dari yang dibayangkan and i don't surely know what it is yet. Di baris lain, Joni berkata bahwa "I could drink a case of you, darling. But I would still be on my feet.". Oke, ini tipikal situasi yang sering saya alami. Sometimes, you don't need to be with someone, though he's the double rainbow to you. Karena ada beberapa alasan yang membuat "I'm so much better on my own". Saya nangis waktu dengerin ini pertama kalinya. Bukan karena pengalaman pribadi atau situasi saat ini, tapi karena "Joni, you so feel me! You speak my words!". Oh oke, ini karena pengalaman pribadi. Berlebihan memang, but this is such a fucking goooood song. Tapi saya rasa, meskipun saya tidak memiliki pengalaman seperti ini, lagu ini tetap akan jadi lagu kesukaan saya dan saya akan tetap menangis waktu mendengarkan pertama kali. Ada banyak hal yang bisa dicermati dan dilumat dalam - dalam secara lembut. Pastinya, ini lagu yang sangat cocok untuk di dengarkan di dini hari, sebelum tidur. Saat yang menyala cuma lampu meja yang memendarkan cahaya redupnya, suara - suara di luar terasa menjauh dan orang - orang di rumah atau kost sudah tidur karena saat ini sudah pukul 3 pagi, sambil mata resah mau tidur atau melakukan apa lagi dan memikirkan nasib suatu perasaan (engh). Saat yang ada di kamar (dan apparently, kamarmu terasa seperti seluruh dunia yang di convert menjadi satu kotak yang cukup buatmu) hanya kamu seorang. It makes you think, it makes you feel. Selamat dini hari :).

China Blue

A cat from Zhongguo escaped herself to the ocean, but alas... cats can't swim for too long.

***

She was once a jovial cat, with her joyful smile and laughter filled up Zhongguo in the toppest happiness.

Until one day, The Golden Tiger ruined everything in her life. Her sunny days turned to gray, her eyes sparked nothing but sad sight.

She decided to swim away to The Ocean, where she would be friends with mermaids and seaponies. She was swimming from the shore until she saw a city below her. A city of ethereal streets made of coral with sea flowers around 'em. Then, she swam deeper than ever and everything was bluer forever.

But after all, she was only a cat and cats can't swim for too long. Her excitement brought her to go deeper without realizing that the deeper she would swam, the harder she would breath.

So, she fell deep below the sea.

The Dearest Child (teaser video)

I am currently in the making of my photo book which planned to be filled with photos and poems. Two days ago I did the number-what photo shoot with Sari Ahimsa Prameswari and here, presented by yours truly, the very first teaser 

The Dearest Child from prinka saraswati on Vimeo.

While this one, is the behind-the-shoot photo

I still have no idea when the book will be printed. I still have some photo shoots to do, working on the printing and labelling stuff. Wish me a lotta luck!

R.E.D

I stayed at Nyon's house for two days and had some fun there, along with her housemate, Sarah Danita! Sarah is this reckless young woman who has an amazing taste in music (Edith Piaf!) and literature (The Curious Incident of Dog in the Night Time!). Yet, i did not have much joyful time with her cat, Mon. He was such an annoying cat, with his high sexual vibrant which lead to his behaviour to scratch my thighs and Nyon's chest. In addition to all of these, a matchstick stucks in human form, named Enat came to Nyon's house to meet me and give me some films. Pong.

a short trip to Jakarta

Last week, i had a trip to Jakarta which was counted as part of the job and holiday at the same time. I met some new people there, went to new places, bought new books which won't be sold here (Lula Magazine, Inzanesville, Boys of My Youth, etc.) and had some good mood (as an additional). Also I did a little self - project with Sari Ahimsa Prameswari, went to i-don't-know-where-the-hell-those-places-were with Agam and his friend, Sahal, stayed in Nyon's house for a couple of days, went to RuRu, hang out with Sari Ahimsa that I've been missed for ages, and finally met Enat/Enad?, a matchstick stucks in a human form. Everything was purrfect (since I've met so many cats there), jolly, and technicolor. It was a bomb! Thank you, everyone I've met there! :)