sun-drenched march

pictures i took during recent photo shoot, softball games and daydreaming. the fourth photo comes out reddish because of the magenta filter, should have shot with no filter... heh.

A Waiting and A Phone Call

“It’s been more than two months...”

“I know, how many days left?”

“Jeez... don’t count.” [ I heard a soft voice that ends with a patient sigh– maybe,or is it just me?]

A couple days ago I went to the nearest small coffee take away near campus. I don’t really like coffee honestly, but I thought it was going to be such treat after a phonology lecture. The first minute I came there,  I was fine. The second minute I was there, I was waiting for a coffee. The third minute I was there, I still had to wait. The fourth minute I was there, I started to feel bored,  I moved my eyes to every corner of the small room.  The room was a bit dark. It was cloudy outside and they didn’t turn the lamp on. It was 11.20 in the morning, but it was so dark. They played pop music. Lame pop music in the top 40. The fifth minute I was there, I felt even more bored. I scanned the room again. There were only two tables there. The first table was on the right side from the enter door, the second one is on the left side. They were made of wood. I saw two pairs of legs swinging softly and some giggles coming from the owner of those pairs of legs. Oh, a girlfriend and her boyfriend. The sixth minute I was there, I had to wait more, and I started to feel a feeling that I feel familiar with. The seven minute I was there, I realize I envy them and I wish I could sit on the other table. With you. It was a small table, with two small round chairs. It has a fine range which won’t be too close or too far to talk to you or to watch you stir the teaspoon. We have never been drinking coffee together, none of us love coffee as much as we love to sit on the bed and watch the TV together. But, losing calcium through coffee with you would be equal with having a cuddle. The eight minute I was there, the music is getting even more lame. I wished they didn’t play lame pop music. I wished they played About You from Jesus and Mary Chain. It reminded me of you, of us. The ninth minute I was there, the waiter called my name and passed me a cup of black coffee, plus a bit creamer but with no sugar. Then, at the same time as I was going to open up the door and left that place, I wish you were there.   

“It’s been more than two months...”

 “I know, how many days left?”

“Jeez... don’t count it.” [ I heard a soft voice that ends with a patient sigh – maybe, or is it just me?]

“Hey, I was just wandering. How was your day?”

“Been working since morning. I haven’t  got breakfast yet. Yours?”

“Go get some then. Well, me... typical. I had a lecture today and had breakfast at the cafeteria and I went home. “

“That’s all? Hey, you will be teaching at 5, won’t you? 



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Akhir – akhir ini saya sering offline dari revolusi the WORLD WIDE WEB! Dan saya tidak menyesalinya as what you ought to know. Saya semacam wanita karier yang sibuk seharian tampaknya. Padahal ya kesibukan saya cuma meningkat beberapa persen saja dari biasanya. Saya sedang mengerjakan beberapa tugas dan proyek kecil dari kampus, menyiapkan ulangan tengah semester dan mengajar privat dari Senin sampai Jumat. I wish I had more hours than just 24. Sehingga saya punya waktu lebih untuk menulis di blog, kencan di skype, chat di ym dengan sari dan novan, pergi ke tambak bayan, mengikuti kelas salsa, dan mengajar buta huruf serta yatim piatu lebih sering. I also wished I’m being paid properly (*oke, curhat.). Sehingga saya bisa menscan film – film saya dengan kualitas yang baik, menabung untuk laptop baru dan untuk bertemu pacar. Sejujurnya, saya belum siap bekerja secara konstan dan bukan freelance. My job as a private teacher consumes my time where I actually can have more time to have my own projects and go out of town. Tapi, ya sudah, paling tidak menjadi guru privat masih mending daripada guru di sekolah. I CAN’T STAND THE SYSTEM. Ya sebetulnya kalau mau sih, saya harusnya mengubah system itu dan gembar – gembor apa kek. Tapi, menurut saya rebelling is not the answer anymore. Saya memilih untuk melakukan hal – hal kecil yang menjadi trigger untuk perubahan. Contoh, saya lebih suka mengajar sukarela, daripada harus melamar ke sekolah atau departemen pendidikan untuk mengubah system pendidikan. Lebih baik kita memberi kerangka pola pikir yang baik kepada akar – akarnya (baca: anak – anak di bawah umur 12 tahun). Percuma kalau sistemnya berubah, tapi tidak mengenai dasarnya. Karena yang seharusnya diubah bukan system, tapi pola pikir. Saya merasa bukan seorang guru. Sebenarnya. Saya cuma prihatin dan ini adalah opini saya sebagai orang biasa yang kebetulan ditawari mengajar.

*ps: saya cuma manusia biasa yang mengakui "money can buy happiness" because OMG Fred Perry mengeluarkan edisi polka dot dengan warna kesukaan saya, navy blue dan putih, in the form of tennis dress dan rubber boots. oh oke, ini tidak ada urusannya dengan posting di atas.

ENIGMATIC

A commisioned look book I did for VRY x KAROONG . The concept is a new world found between the sheets, that will reach you out with its magnetic fingers and haunt you in your dream.

All the Dragons Burst in Joy

A joy blanketed in simplicity at Tambak Bayan's Chinese New Year, last February. For you who have no idea what is happening in Tambak Bayan, you can google it.  And here, a documentation of this togetherness, from Tambak Bayan and Milisi Fotocopy .